still at the restaurant. trying to defer my uni course for six months so that i can work full time. earn some money, get my weekends back, go camping, visit my mates, visit mum. i'm really bored and need a new one.want to move out of home. we're so close now its so not funny. we have like so many photos together.getting fitter by the day. slimmed down considerably. am now a size eight. who would have thought? didn't realize i was that fat. i used to be a size twelve. i like to go running now. weird i know. still want to get rid of fat stuff around my belly but who gives a shit really? i just need to prioritize my time better and organize things. feeling happy now that ive got mates i can rely on and have fun and good times with. still looking for a new job but im not too worried about stuff nemore. people who meet me now tell me that i'm a good person which has to be true right? i used to think i wasnt worth people's attention but maybe that was because i wasn't ever sure if i wanted it or not.

I'm also seeing another guy casually (number two). He's nice too and he's funny and cute and lots of fun to be around. I think if we didn't do the casual sex thing we'd still be friends which is great. Ok so (i know i'm starting to sound like a slut but take note i got burnt bad ok? i can't stand being alone now, it makes me feel really empty and upset. if you're gonna be my friend be prepared to be smothered in hugs and funny stories) there's a number three. he's the oldest (26) and he's leaving for south america next week for five weeks. I have no idea how this will turn out because I haven't slept with him yet and he's nice and I like being around him.